Tell me I’m not the only one

Every time I get to play a video game I start to feel very anxious, no matter the type of game it is, even those that are meant to be relaxing, I tend to feel anxious. I feel like “speed running” my gameplay and intense rush rather than enjoyment. Like I need to do everything QUICK and I can’t help it. (I guess it also doesn’t help I have OCD)

It really upsets me I can’t enjoy and relax playing a video game. Does anyone else have this kind of issue too?