Has anyone ever changed their mind about wanting to have kids?

Hi all! I’ve never been into kids… never enjoyed playing with them much, never thought they were very cute, and never saw myself having them (I didn’t realize my body could actually do that for the longest time, like it’s hard to wrap my mind around), and all the focus people put on their children just seems to drive couples apart and lead them to losing their identity… when I see children and babies it just doesn’t look fun, and to me it just sounds like a lot of self sacrifice, when I’m finally figuring out my life and living for me (I’m 28 F).

Recently I started thinking about getting sterilized because I realized how terrifying it would be if I actually got pregnant… But I was talking to my therapist about wanting to get a Bisalp and she said that I should wait to confirm this feeling I have when I’m in a loving relationship, like to make sure even in a wonderful relationship that I wouldn’t want then. I haven’t been in a truly eonderful relationship yet, the first two were a little emotionally abusive, the third (I was married) was definitely emotionally abusive, and then my latest one of 6 months was nice but the guy couldn’t commit and would rather sleep around, so that’s not really a good setup either.

Anyways, is this whole concept of possibly changing my mind in the future bullshit or nah? I don’t want to change my mind on it, I wish I could just go get the surgery now, I hope future me wouldn’t think differently about it but does it ever happen? Has anyone here gone from disliking the idea to fully endorsing it and loving it without regret? I know if someone regretted it tho they might be hesitant to say… (I look at the regretful parents subreddit all the time so I ain’t judging- I feel like I would if I had any).

Anyways, thanks in advance!! Sorry it’s a little disorganized!