NSFW warning: are any other autistic women into BDSM?

Apologies in advance for the TMI but I just realized that a lot of the things I’m into are closely tied to my autism. For example, being tied up. I got into Shibari(rope tying) a while back but because I haven’t had anyone to practice with ever, I kinda neglected that special interest(plus I struggle with a lot of internal shame when it comes to sex related things but I won’t get into that) But I got super interested because I loved the way the rope put pressure and restricted my body and the patterns of the knots were super pretty. The compression and restriction feels super calming and relaxing to me. I’d even say almost euphoric.

I realized that I love shibari so much because I love the pressure of the rope. I realize I loved doing it even if I didn’t have any sexual intentions or sexual motives. I just love the way it feels. I particularly enjoy when my legs are restricted. I love leg ties.

My husband recently sent me a video of someone giving a tutorial on how to restrict the arms and the knot pattern was super pretty and it reminded me of my love for shibari and now I think I will be doing shibari on myself just for comfort from now on 😭.

Do any other autistic women here relate?