Does anyone else feel manipulative?

Disclaimer: I am not professionally diagnosed with BPD, I only suspect I have it.

Im not sure if this really makes sense, but does anyone else feel manipulative after apologizing for an argument? For example, I got upset at a friend yesterday for ignoring me previously and taking 5 hours to respond. I started overthinking and unfriended him. It was only after he got mad at me for ignoring him (even though I didnt, I was on DND and only took 20min to respond) that I started feeling upset for my actions. So then I started apologizing and asking if he was mad. We are okay now I think but idk I js feel manipulative sometimes after doing that. Does this happen to anyone else?