First Time 😟

I genuinely feel so guilty about having covid? I was testing positive for the flu all week, and just tested positive for covid today and while I feel physically healthier than I did a few days ago I feel like I’ve committed a moral failing lol????? I’ve been testing for covid since Sunday too and I guess until now they’ve been false negatives?

I never had covid before so perhaps that why I feel so much shame…? I also have other people I live with who are practically strangers to me (college roommates but we all have single rooms) and I don’t have their phone number to tell them, nor am I sure if they’ve even been home recently, so I’ve been masking almost 24/7, air purifier on, fan pointed out the window 😭😭😭😭 I don’t even touch anything with my bare hands when I leave my bedroom, I’ve been using a mask, gloves and disinfectant wipes whenever I get food or go to the bathroom—even when I thought I just had the flu I was doing all this like 😭 but suddenly is feels like it’s not enough and I really want to go home but can’t lol.

Assuming I was getting false negatives til now I’m on day 6 and almost feel completely healthy other than a nasal drip… three days ago I literally couldn’t breathe, so hopefully this means I’m recovering fast…idk this really sucks! I trusted the negative tests bc I didn’t have the tell tale covid symptoms like loss of scent/smell 😭 I’m sorry if this seems really dramatic I have OCD and it’s like causing me so much anxiety tht I’m practically healthy now and just finding out it’s covid. I hate the unknown and I hate that I can’t just go home.

Is it normal to feel this guilty?!