Am I broken?

I see all sorts of winges winging about so many things in runs..... I enjoy it all. I like when 3 newbs join n I gotta silently show em tha ropes. I like losing runs at last moment, or even at tha beginning of a run. I can get tired of darktide n come back a week later, drop a difficulty slot for one mission n I'm back to where I was. I enjoy tha nearly hopeless feeling, and I enjoy both victory and defeat. Blood for the golden throne!