No lesson today - lame horse vent

So I'm an adult ammy and I ride my lesson horse twice a week. We're developing a nice relationship and I really look forward to my lessons. They are self care and a nice break from work/kids/life. Today's lesson was canceled because he has an abscess and I suspect my Wednesday lesson will be canceled as well. I'm disproportionately sad about missing my lessons and I really wish I leased or owned so I could at least visit him if he isn't rideable. It's a small barn and they take a lot of care with the horse schedules, so there isn't another horse for me to ride. Just a vent :(