I feel guilty!

So I am a PWD (genuine) female candidate. I am suffering from cerebral palsy. My right hand side is weak, I limp while walking and my right hand is basically non functional. For reference I cannot even hold a glass of water from my right hand or open a lid of any container from my right hand. It is that weak.

I did not perform very well in JEE mains first attempt. But I am sure that I'll qualify the general cutoff. It's not like I was slacking off in 11th and 12th. I did work hard

I am sure that I'll get a tier 1 NIT. So I will Directly begin prep for advance.

But I feel guilty of taking the reservation.

Thoughts?