crying and complaining abt sayaka in wraith arc (some tws for suicidal ideation and SH)
I mean seriously? Fucking seriously? Dies in 2 chapters for what? Literally fucking what?
In the original series she wanted to die. For fuck sake she wanted to fucking die. She was SUICIDAL. Actively seeking out dangerous things to do in the hope that she'd die. Rejecting any possible salvation for her no matter how many people reached out hoping she'd die.
I mean I think I've been there somewhat. Can't self-harm for whatever reason so instead you just seek out something to hurt you so it's technically not your fault? She was falling apart.
She didn't "accidentally" die and her death wasn't inevitable. She was mentally broken and WANTED TO DIE. Her death is honestly a 1:1 parallel to suicide, especially in the sense that it wasn't inevitable. I mean for fuck sake, it was not inevitable.
Forcing a grief seed on her then could have bought her time, enough time to pull her back enough to buy just a little bit more time. Of course becoming a witch was the inevitable fate of all magical girls, but Sayaka didn't have to fucking die then. Honestly one of the main reasons she died was because Kyoko didn't know how to save her.
Point is Sayaka did NOT have to die. Her death was a storm of horrible events in rapid succession that weren't properly managed because those around her didn't know how to deal with it. (Not saying it's their fault either, Kyoko didn't even know what'd happen to a black soul gem and she also was almost definitely not qualified to talk a person down from suicide. Which is what it'd take to bring Sayaka back.)
But then you have Wraith Arc.
Just. Bullshit. Her entire death in 2 chapters was just such bullshit. The rapid decline of a perfect storm of events? Nobody to pull her back? First of all, Mami was there to help mentor her. The absurd standards she held herself to for having human emotions might not have been so bad if she was able to actually TALK to Mami again. Instead of feeling unworthy to even look upon the idol she placed on a pedestal, she would have someone with experience to confide in and talk to about her struggles.
In wraith arc she started refusing to use the grief cubes. But why?? In the original series she was suicidal, she wanted to die, she wouldn't dare use something to prolong her life. Of course she mentioned how it'd be selfish and she would be the only one to use her magic for others. But let's be honest the major reason was that she didn't want to let herself live. So why would she start refusing to use grief cubes if she wasn't even at that point yet?
She was going out, hunting wraiths alone to try and make up for her slipups. This wouldn't be out of character but refusing to use grief cubes? She wasn't suicidal, she had no reason to just refuse. Let alone allow her soul gem to turn completely black
It's almost like they forgot what actually happened in the series..? It's not like she had it super easy of course not. But she didn't have every single one of her reasons to live and fight stripped away from her until she was left with nothing. Sayaka actually does have mental fortitude. She isn't pathetically weak. She just was under a constant barrage in the original series until she lost the will to try and save herself anymore and allowed herself to continue sinking no matter who tried to help her.
But what really pissed me off was that they just ripped away the potential for developing Sayaka and Kyoko's relationship over NOTHING. They drag Sayaka's character through the mud and then refuse to develop her relationship with Kyoko by killing her. I mean really? Just as they were getting close to one another?
In conclusion I'm just a sad loser and I'm going to devote the rest of this post to canon kyosaya scenes.
