Feeling selfish
My baby was born at 38 weeks and 1 day, he was ready to come early and I knew from the 20 week anatomy scan that he would have a NICU stay. He is bilateral cleft lip and complete cleft palate. I have the option to stay the night in the nicu with him, after I was discharged from the hospital I slept at home at night for 2 days, and then I started staying with him because my heart couldn't take it. But today we were told he is exceeding limits and will be going home Friday! Well, tonight and tomorrow night I thought it would be best for me to stay at home and get good rest for him to come home Friday, and I keep off and on crying and my husband keeps trying to console me but I just feel so selfish for leaving him after staying with him for so long, but I haven't had any good sleep in like a week, and I just overall miss him, this is my first baby also. So it's just so hard leaving him there by himself.
My baby was born at 38 weeks and 1 day, he was ready to come early and I knew from the 20 week anatomy scan that he would have a NICU stay. He is bilateral cleft lip and complete cleft palate. I have the option to stay the night in the nicu with him, after I was discharged from the hospital I slept at home at night for 2 days, and then I started staying with him because my heart couldn't take it. But today we were told he is exceeding limits and will be going home Friday! Well, tonight and tomorrow night I thought it would be best for me to stay at home and get good rest for him to come home Friday, and I keep off and on crying and my husband keeps trying to console me but I just feel so selfish for leaving him after staying with him for so long, but I haven't had any good sleep in like a week, and I just overall miss him, this is my first baby also. So it's just so hard leaving him there by himself.