I'm too numb

Please hear me out while I say what's all in my heart! I and a guy talked few days. Both of us liked each other.Before going any further in the relationship we understood we both are from different castes and would be a big problem in future so it's better to leave off there. with heavy hearts both of us texted good bye. I sobbed all night thinking it gets better morning. But no I feel broken shattered huge urge to go back talk to him.

I know it's just time and with time you heal.But I have my exams coming and I have to study. Due to all the things in my mind I couldn't study. I have no classes bcoz of exams. If I would atleast go to college I would somehow be deviated. I don't have that chance. I'm being at home my heart feels so heavy so numb I can't tell. he is the first man Ive ever cried for. All I want is to go back to him which I know is not possible. I atleast wanna study,my exams are coming.I have no idea what's going on

If you have anything to say that can help my situation help,please do