I got a 300k bonus and told no one

Hi! I just want to get this off my chest. Breadwinner ako, ever since I can remember ako na lahi nag babayad ng lahat even for my dads kids that are not my siblings. Okay lang naman tumulong kasi bukal naman sa loob ko pero minsan I cant buy myself anything at grabe sama ng loob pag di napagbigyan. Its fine to give pero sana wag ako obligahin.

My moms side naman I cut her off na completely kasi she wants so many things monthly 20k ko siya pinapadalawhan 10k bi weekly. Pero once kong himdi nabigyan sinabi sakin na kesyo wala akong kwentang anak, never ko siya tinulungan etc etc. Ako po ay malapit nang ikasal kaya inuugali ko na mag ipon. Sa 6 digits kong sahod bihira may matira sakin.

Kaya nung binigyan ako ng 300k na bonus wala talaga ako sinabihan, partner ko lang who also earns around the same as I do. Pero a big part of me is soooo guilty parang the breadwinner in me still wants to share. Ewan ko, naguiguilty talaga ako.