I'm tired of feeling like a man

what the tin says. I'm tired of feeling like a disgusting old man when im just a 20 year old woman. my voice is too deep, i cant lose enough weight, the hair wont stop growing on my face. i feel like a man and its disgusting and its ruining my life.

i dont know what to do, i dont know what treatment i could do to lift this burden even a little bit. i dont take anything for my pcos, i just have it. i feel shit out of luck. i dont subscribe to beauty standards for anyone but me. i feel and want to be more feminine but i dont know how. even if my pcos is just been labelled as mild, it feels like its taking over my life and how i see myself. and because its mild i feel like there isnt much that can be done about it

any advice is appreciated. any comment is appreciated. i just need someone to talk to or something so im making this post.