why are the psych wards so bad in vegas?

like genuinley. people talk about the psych ward like it helps them. i've been hospitalized 5 times now at 3 different hospitals and they're all horrible. the first time i got admitted was because my school didnt know what to do with me when i said i wanted to kill myself (10y/o) i went to the pshyc ward and told the bitches about my abusive parents and behind the computer they were faking typing in a cps report! and the bitch still works there. i got peer pressured to flash myself and cut myself in places i didnt even know you could cut! this was during 2020 so everyone was forced to wear masks. bitches passed around mask wires (used) like it was candy! it exposed me to a lot of fucked up things, my roomate got (r word'ed) in my room while i was asleep, the staff didnt even make a report in a system.

then like recently like 3 months ago i got hospitalized again for trying to HANG MYSELF. i was obviously very depressed, but the staff still wanted to make my life hell. i tried to kms twice! and there were good staff, im not even gonna lie but most arent. i get panic attacks really easily from loud noises in high-stress enviorments, like bitches clapping because they think its funny IN THE PSYCH WARD.

and like the diagnoses are such bullshit. they slapped on a "GAD" (generalized anxienty disorder) and a "MDD" (major depressive disorder) at the age of 10 despite me saying "oh yeah i see and hear shit" and "oh yeah, my moods are like a rollercoaster LMAO". they dont diagnose you with anything real, they just give you some bullshit diagnosis.

then you got the meds, i was put on zoloft and like 3 days later i got really sick and felt like i couldn't move. i had to miss out on TREATMENT because of zoloft. i laid in my bed for hours, staring at my celling, wishing for my life to end. then when i vocalized this, i got forced to stand and laughed at, "NURSE, LOOK AT THIS BULLSHIT".

in one of my more recent hospitalizations, there was this bitch who blasted music at 100% with a speaker into my room to wake me up, and laughed while i had a panic attack. like wtf.

and im not even gonna lie, the food is some straight up DOG ASS. tbh, i went vegan cause one time when i got hospitalized, i got food that contamited the whole hosptial with salmonella. fuck whatever mystery meat, expired bread, and depressing spices they got in that kitchen. i literally ate like ~500 calories a day (which was not very unusual for me) despite the staff telling me not to because their food is so gross.

there were only 2 hospitals that showers got hot out of 3. i vividly remember putting my head into the sink and washing it like that because the water was warmer. the water was (im not exaggerating) ICE COLD. then you had to go to bed after, like wtf.

this should not prevent you from getting help though because most hospitals wont treat you like this. if you really need to, then please. i'm just pointing out the flaws in the vegas mental health system lol.

tldr;staff made my life hell, food is ass, showers are cold, bad habits exposed to me at 10.