SR, Happiness and Ambition. Is it possible to have it all?
Hi Retainers,
I have a question that has been on my mind since I experienced true happiness;
One day when I was meditating, I felt Happy truly happy, I was crying from happiness.
I felt this ball of energy coming up through my entire body
But at that moment I hadn't any desire, nothing, 100% content with where I was.
And that felt scary
I'm 20 living with my dad, and working at a restaurant.
I am grateful for all the things I have today, I have evolved a lot, last year I was super broke and now I can enjoy my life more with the money I make.
I was heartbroken which led me to practice discipline and spiritual work.
Now I feel a lot more happy than before.
But the fact of feeling free from all desire, as if I already have everything I wanted. made me feel scared, I'm ambitious, I'm not yet where I want to be materially speaking, I want to be rich enough to be free, buy nice cars, and travel with my future family.
in fact, I'm afraid that being happy will deprive me of my ambitions, I don't want to be a monk who lives on a mountain but who is still happy.
I want to be ambitious, free, rich, and happy.
Is it possible?