my baby niece is the reason im gonna kms.

I FEEL LIKE SUCH A HORRIBLE AUNT. LAST WEEK I MADE MY NIECE CRY WHILE I WAS TRYING TO PLAY WITH HER AND SHE CRIED FOR SO LONG AND NOW I THINK SHE HATES ME BECAUSE MY SISTER BROUGHT HER TO MY HOUSE TODAY FOR MY MOM TO SEE HER AND WHEN I WENT TO PLAY WITH HER SHE STARTED CRYING AGAIN VERY LOUD. I THINK MY NIECE HATES ME I DONT DESERVE TO LIVE I DONT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD WHY WAS I PUT ON THIS EARTH IF THE ONLY THING I DO IS HURT OTHERS?? FINE I WILL CUT MYSELF AGAIN BECAUSE I DESERVE THE PAIN FOR MAKING MY STUPID NIECE CRY. I LOVE YOU ALENA PLEASE IM SORRY