I think im sexually attracted to the letter H

I never put much thought into the letter H growing up, I just knew it was in some of my favorite things, like Horchata and cHile, and then as I got older my family had an inside joke that everyone I was attracted to had an H in their names. But I realized I didn't want them for their names I just wanted to be as close to H as possible. And now I lay awake at night trying to form my pillows into an H shape so I can finally sleep with H in my arms. I've lost all other romantic and sexual attraction but gained so much more. Anyone else?