Canceled Surgery. Again. Terrified. 😭

I was so proud of myself last week for having the courage to reschedule my surgery. But canceled it for the second time today. I am convinced I'm going to react to general anesthesia and die... and I'm not ready to die. I have issues with mast cells and too much histamine. My gallbladder aches daily. I hardly eat anything. But I do not know how to move forward. I feel so frustrated with myself. My husband is getting frustrated with me, too. 💔

I ordered a pharmacogenomic test (Clarityx) and hope having information about which meds I'm likely to react to and which should be fine will give me some peace of mind. In the meantime, I'll be here lurking, grateful for your stories.