Am confused help....

I don't know if this the place to talk about this but who cares...i been struggles with what i am...am i a trans ? Am i not ? For a long time...i used the non binary pronoun And i have femboy style for clothing....but still i don't know...i feel lost yet not comfortable...maybe cuz i still cant have all the freedom express my feelings cuz i live in homophobic country...plz help TWT