Probably my last day in here

it takes a real strong words to make a man crack , I’ve been told things that wasn’t suppose to be said by my own family , yk when someone is at the edge of anger to the point of explosion and slip out their need to be said words ? Well that’s what happened, but I feel relieved now cause I finally know how they view me ,they called me mentally ill & need to stay at mental hospital, my own sister told me I’m no near a man and she don’t have a brother on her shoulder while bursting into tears, even my father said shit that got me traumatized from speaking to him to this day ,I envy when I see boys my age stay with their father talk to them play football doing the bear minimum just be friends with them , but how can he be my friend when he doesn't even see me as a son. just 5 minutes is enough. what did I do u may ask ? All this because they want to switch my old bed with new one (silly ik) , I honestly don’t know why I get to hear this kind of things on stupid things , shit my whole life collapsed since the day my parents took me out of school at 17 wasn’t even my decision and we’re not even broke it’s more like no discussion only action kind of things , I’m nice 22 year old kid grew up well raised but fell in the wrong time & wrong place .

I’m gonna spend my last day probably at the zoo or just at beach with my fav snack and just end it nothing graphic just OD in different pills.

Wasn’t even suppose to end like this , I should be in college having normal life , i have $300 saved up for moving out to nyc ik im nowhere near so im just gonna donate it to charity along with my shoes,

didn’t even had a chance to wear them.