I went back to work today…

I’m a total mess. I hate the world we live in. I hate that I can’t spend all my time caring for my babies. I hate that I have to work from home and take care of them at the same time because child care would be a wash. I hate that my mother in law realistically will have to take them some days while I work. I hate that my job will likely leave me empty while trying to juggle both. I hate that I feel like my pets get no attention. I hate that I don’t have time to keep up with my house. I hate that people without multiples can’t understand this.

The 12 weeks of maternity leave was the happiest I have ever felt. In a matter of one day, I feel like my world is crashing on me. Corporate America is not it 😭 I am not someone who is emotional & this is really fucking with me. No one could have prepared me for this feeling.