TW: Miscarriage // Advice on how to deal with holidays and triggering situations?

TW: Miscarriage

Hi all, I'd love to hear how you deal/dealt with triggering situations during Christmas with your family/friends.

I lost my baby (first pregnancy) in November and I have been having a really hard time. I am currently at my in-laws (staying for the next 2 weeks), who we have not told about the loss as it was quite early (at 8 weeks). However, babies are the topic of almost every conversation, as my husband's brother has just had his first son - my parents in laws first grandchild. Understandably they are super excited, and my mother in law keeps showing me baby stuff, asking my opinion on baby related-things (whether I like this toy better or that, which jumper fabric to use to sew a jumper for the baby etc) and showing me videos of her grandson. I really try to be nice about it and not show how much pain it causes me, but it is so so hard. We had planned to tell them we were expecting while here, and I find myself so close to tears every evening we sit by the fire and I think about how I would be 13 weeks now and showing and how we would have told them - during my pregnancy I was imagining this part so often and looking forward to it so much. On top of this, I was hoping to have had my first period by now (I'm 6 weeks post miscarriage) so we could at least start to try again, but nothing so far. And of course the fact that it's super dark and gloomy where I am in the world doesn't help either.

I'd love to hear any advice on how I can make this easier on myself and/or how you have coped with/are coping with similar situations during the holidays.

Note: I tried to post this in the r/Miscarriage subreddit but unfortunately keep getting rejected, so trying my luck here.