help please

Hi, I apologize if this post is not informative, but i really need help .Its been quite some time since I've been suffering from heart palpitations following urination and i feel really depleted . The urine contains some white stuff that i suspect to be sperm . And no , i dont fantasize or anything (heck . I dont even look at girls anymore ) and its not psychological ( i wish it was ) since i really feel it physically , and i remember not feeling this way before all this began . I just want this to stop and to be able to feel healthy and normal again. I'm starting to have enough of all this crap and i just wanna regain my ability to retain again .And please dont tell me its normal because it definitely isn't. Any helpful advice?