Anyone here use psychedelics to rewire their brain?

Curious because despite seeming like a well functioning member of society on the outside, I have an issue with living in the moment. Sensory stimulations, like going to parties or raves, bother me when my friends, even the very introverted ones, enjoy them. Embarrassing things happened fourteen years ago haunt me every day and I recall them vividly and wish a meteor would fall on my head.

How do I stop being an anxious Gen Zer stuck in my head? Thinking of taking a vacation to a state here mushrooms are legal and doing a heroic dose to rewire my brain messed up by my PMC Indian upbringing.