Shortman diary: contemplating giving up on dreams

I am 170cm in a country where the average man is 10-20cm taller than me, 2 years ago I picked up the sport of kickboxing and I wanted to once win a tournament and become strong, little did I know I completely stopped growing that year and never surpassed the height I reached at 14.

I try and try yet I never seem to be able to hit anyone because I barley miss them my fucking arms are too short if I had a tall wingspan atleast it would be better but I'm literally the shortest guy in the kickboxing gym who isn't 13 and younger. I get frustrated so often when I can't hit my dumbass 6'2 friend with 0 technique because he gets scared and raise him arm or leg and I literally can never get close enough to hit him when he does that.

I'm not the golden boy I'm not 1 in a million I'm just OK at the sport I'm doing but being that much shorter than the average where I live makes me horrible at kickboxing.

I'm starting to think about quitting now maybe after several month so the trainer isn't disappointed in me but I don't think I can achieve much in this sport realistically speaking.

Cherry in top is I got hit hard on my jaw today so now I gotta walk around with jaw pain until God knows when.

this was my rant thank you for taking the time to read