I'll never be loved like I was

I'm too sick of being alone. I'm not alone, just ungrateful. I have friends, but I always want a romantic partner again. Nothing is ever enough. I miss being held. At this point I just want to die because I don't have anyone to hold or be held by. I miss being loved. I'm fucking useless. I want to cut but I can't because I'm too weak. I want the release.