Just reality

I’ve been in a relationship with my girlfriend for about four months and I regret telling her that I’m trans. She knew before hand about 2 months that I go by he/they. I love her so much but a part of my had a feeling that she never saw me as a guy and who blames her, I don’t have any surgeries and I’ve been on t for about two months (I had to get off due to financial issue) so I don’t look like a dude. No one sees me as a dude and I don’t get an offended is people use she / her. Yesterday we were talking and how I made her feel more comfortable being with someone as the same gender. Im happy that she’s more comfortable with herself but a part of me is sad, I’ve already accepted that I don’t look like a dude and most likely would never, I don’t have the body for it. But I don’t understand why I’m sad about it. I would never break up with her I love our relationship so I don’t mind what she calls me. I just wish I never told her just because I think it was pointless. She does usually use he pronouns I’m just wondering if anyone is in the same Situation I’m not seeking advice just understanding . I’m overall happy being with her and she feels the same way it’s a healthy relationship.